I fell in-love, i met him, i finally met the other half to my soul and i can’t of course be with him, hahah ironic and tragic… It seems to be a trend. After all my attempts to get lost and forget now too we changed so much we cannot recognize ourselves, my mind my heart still goes back. Always.
Truth is…I liked him before anyone knew who he was, before anyone knew his name.
Why even though painful why do those memory seem so warm. Even though so far away why does it seem so close, like it was just yesterday… We were talking about the world losing track of time. Now i’m running around, with no time, trying to make time to keep the few friends I have left.
He’s gone, a year now… Yet it feels like yesterday we were lying on the carpet staying up late and he was staring at my face, as I tried to stay awake. Every time I opened my eyes he was looking at me as if he knew this is the only time we would get to be happy together. We both knew the universe wouldn’t let us be together and things were gonna go to shit.
Just like that my soul mate bid me farewell, dressed in white he was that day when it all went astray.
I liked his friend first, than i met him and i fell in-love with him almost instantly. Crazy. I am still in-love but i am in-love with the memory of who we used to be.
When i first met him i was so convinced i was going to meet his dad i was going to introduce him to my family, and i to his. i was so innocent i never partied or got drunk. now I’m 21 and just in first five months of 2016 my body count went from 1 to 3. Which is a lot for someone who was brought up the way i did.
He isn’t innocent either anymore or kind. A renowned savage breaking peoples’ hearts, the reason for that i think is because life broke our hearts not letting us live the epic love story fairy tale we were supposed to live.
Now we are both cold, savage and empty. I wonder if he has a hard time recognizing himself in the mirror as I have lately. We probably won’t find each other again so we indulge in the savage life and claim it makes us happy.
All i wanted was to be dressed in white.
Oh happy dagger,